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Sigh, Thursday was a little rough. Our day was filled with Drs. appointments. We began at the ENT, he literally only looked in Molly's ears and said ok we need to make a lot of referrals and order bloodwork. A friend of mine warned me that this appointment would be just that, but I thought there might be a little more to it. Well Molly was scheduled for her 2 month check and since we figured she is getting shots, we would do her bloodwork. I knew she would cry so I sent Aaron in with her and I'm so glad I did. It's bad enough they had to take blood at all, but the first arm they couldn't hit her vein and were digging around and the they finally got the other arm, but we have to go back Monday and put her through this torture again because they didn't get enough. She was screaming the whole time, I could hear her in the waiting room and it was horrible. Also when you have a deaf  baby you can't console her with your voice and she was having blood taken, so Aaron could not rock her, he just sat there as she looked at him sobbing to make it stop.

Her 2 month checkup was next, I am happy to report my little girl is growing nicely. She is already 22 inches long, and weighs 10lbs 9oz! She is right on par, if not a little ahead as far as head control and strength and is just as happy as can be. When she is awake she has the biggest smile, it takes up her whole face, it's contagious, you can't help but feel happy when you see it! The pediatrician was very happy with her progress. They needed to do an EKG, which was fine, but she didn't like having the strips ripped off. Then came shot time and she was not happy about those as well. Then to top it all off poor thing was so sore and ran a fever. I just scooped her up that evening and held her tight and gave her a million kisses so she would know mommy loved her so much.

So I didn't realize how being at the doctor all day would be so draining. I felt a little overwhelmed and like I had been through the ringer. It hit me on the drive back that this road would have lots of days like this, and honestly my heart sunk a little. I shed a tear and thanked God for the strength he was and would bring me, but I mostly thanked God for all of you. I came home to more kind and encouraging words, and my spirits lifted a little more. I am truly blessed as to how good God is being to us in the form all the wonderful people he has placed in our life. I feel so unworthy. I have cried so much in the last week, but not because I'm sad about Molly. It's because of all the kind words and encouragement from everyone. I am overwhelmed by the outpouring I have been receiving, I really do feel your prayers/good thoughts and it's making all of this so much easier. I am truly blessed by such wonderful friends and family. I just can't believe that all this is just for "little old me", I don't feel like I am anyone special, but I am so touched that I am inspiring some of you and that it's causing you to examine your own faith. If this is all happening so people can really know God then I count it all as being worth the price. If our journey encourages and inspire some of you then it helps me to know that we are exactly on the path we need to be.

Next steps: we have another round of bloodwork Monday, a GI appointment on wed, and then several unscheduled referrals. Molly will need a kidney ultrasound, somehow there can be a correlation between the deafness and kidneys, a genetics apt, a ct scan, and a sedated ABR. I will continue to keep everyone posted as to dates and specific prayer needs. Biggest thing we are praying for now is that she will be a candidate for implants.